A load out of my Chest!

2.58 AM....

                One of those nights, I would just want to take some time off. Friday nights usually ask me to back off from the regular routine as if I’m putting myself under rigorous pressure, all through the week. And finally, after the previous post in July, although I have written some real life incidents which do need a bit of tweaking, so here I am in the wee hours of the night want to write something. Not sure what I want to, yet have the most favorite album playing in my ears, Love Aaj Kal and I definitely want to write.

Main Kya Hoon
Main Kya Yeh Batlaoon
Main Woh Hoon Jo Chahoon Woh Paoon
Main Khud Se Hi Vaade Nibhaoon
Main Woh Hoon Jo Chahoon Woh Paoon

                Main Kya hoon from the same album, isn’t that a gem of a track and not to forget Yeh Dooriyan. I have some, well as a matter of fact, many, many such tracks which really touch my heart, that I can never ever get tired of listening to. You know that feeling, you go out. You go to a new place, all day. And at the end of the day, when you’re returning home, there’s always going to be one spot, with the sight of that, gives you a warm relaxed feeling of, ‘Oh yes! I’m finally back to my place..’ and these are such tracks for me. No matter what music I listen, I want to go home, to some soft numbers/music which can move me, give me some comfort. I think, now is the end to stop speaking about my obsession to music. In this post though, I would never stop speaking about music. J J

                Finally, I replaced my usual routine of ‘an-episode-a-day’ of F.R.I.E.N.D.S sit-com, been watching it from so many years before my friend Sandy, got me hooked on this. I knew it was good, for over an year, yet I dint want to get into it, which ultimately I got into. Breaking Bad, there are millions who love this show and I’m the new person who joined the family. This one’s unique in so many ways. But the good thing, I limited myself to the same ‘an-episode-a-day.’ And as of today, I completed three seasons successfully. Akkaya(Sue), can you believe I ditched Suits’ recent episodes to watch this one. J

                This is weird. Over the last two instances when I sat down to write something, I have this unbelievably long list to write about. Have I gone too busy to write? Or is it I think off too many things to write about. I’m at a new place altogether since my last post, my farewell in Cleveland was pretty good, the recent Nadal victory over Djoker claiming his 13th grandslam, thanks to my trainee who dint show up allowing me to watch the entire game, my friend whom I met after a really long time and spent the entire evening eating dinner followed by a brief game of bowling or the other day, when my friends got sloshed at my house, Shravan almost talked me into drinking 10ml of whiskey at the least, Good lord I survived it and survived a birthday celebration three months after my actual birthday!

                Yet amidst all that, I get to do what I want to, is something which actually gives you happiness. When I think of it, its kind of funny. Day-before, you never wanted to study. You give reasons, that your stomach hurt and the lamest of all. Yet your mom is behind your back, asking you to turn off the tv and study else she’s going to complain to daddy! You shut the bedroom door loud enough to let people know that you are pissed and study for a bit waiting for a reason to come outside. And when the exams are done, you are so happy that you were ever in your life. Yesterday, you realize, yes that you need to study for a reason. Your peers and few other people contribute to that apart from the constant push from home. At the least you have an idea what you need to do.

                Now, today, life really takes you to a stage, you feel like explaining stuff to people. You are on to something which no one understands and you try to explain what is it that you are doing. There is no pressure from anyone what so ever. You drive yourself, to make things happen. Ofcourse, everyone has their source of motivation, yet, there is some unanswered zeal, to learn things, no matter what is the reason. It sometimes leads to saying, this is what I should’ve been doing from the past couple of years or may be more.

                If only, one starts joining the bits and pieces of life, everything seems so good. Some valuable lessons are taught and we effortlessly have learnt them, in some cases it does require a lot of effort though. And who has taught those lessons? Well, you know! Don’t you? Ah, that’s a load out of my chest, cleared it all out. I feel like a paper right now. So light!

                Speak of the month of September. 16th is the birthday of my beautiful sister! You’d be celebrating your 33rd birthday! Are you 33 now? I mean, seriously? 2007. That’s when we last celebrated your birthday. And I really don’t know how long its going to be to celebrate your birthday.

“My dear Sis,

You continue to inspire me to fight the day! Never to get tired of it. Make a living! To keep smiling. Assure me, that its going to be okay! Constant support! Thank you so much!

Wish you a super happy birthday! I’m not really planning anything good this time, unlike last year. L Not to forget our fights have taken a new level now. Ha ha!

Miss you, as always!”

                As soon as I was done with Love Aaj Kal, next in line was the time for Jab We Met album. I share my favorite number tum se hi with my sister. So, this one’s for you girl, which is what I’m listening now! Not to mention, Aao Milo Chalo my other favorite from this movie.

Stay Fit. Keep Smiling. Just Breathe!

Vasu Dev..